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30 December 2009 @ 06:32 pm
 times like now, i really want you to be somewhere else. or like to just not talk to me. completely. 
30 November 2009 @ 06:42 pm
I wish us all the best
11 November 2009 @ 02:26 am
FML so bad. I didn't change. Things happen and I have no choice but to deal with them. However I deal with them may be twisted, but I didn't change. I deal with them the same way I deal with every other thing. Gut emotion, gut feeling, gut, gut, gut. It looks bad, I already know that. I hate that it looks so bad. Really. FML so bad.  
11 November 2009 @ 02:02 am
1. what are three ways to win your heart?
charming, funny, cute(?)

2. do you like lightning?
no. thunder comes along w it, not good.

3. have you ever cut someone else’s hair?

4. last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?
ben k.

5. rain or sunshine?
dependent on season, aptitude, mood.

6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?
fats make u look fat

7. biggest turn off?
rubbish character

8. fave movie?
moulin rouge. almost all disney, almost.

9. would you date someone who smokes?
likely not.

10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?

11. what’s your biggest turn on, physically?
looks. as if youd notice anything else pre-that. 

12. would you have sex w. someone you weren’t dating?

13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?

14. have you ever dated someone more than once?

15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
jensen ackles

16. what’s your relationship status?
haha. complicated. ikr, this is such a joke. 

17. do you like cuddling?

18. do you hold grudges?

19. do you regret dating anyone?

20. hugger or kisser?
hugger. and since no one is going to read this, im gna say upfront that i miss hugging you and i hate that you went home. really. 

21. missing someone?
sort of yes

22. most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?
haha get out just..get the hell out.

23. are you happier single or in a relationship?
most of the time, in fact, almost all the time, single.

24. how important are looks?

25. would you rather date someone who was SUPER-HOT or someone who was nice?

26. do you stay friends w. the people you’ve dated?
haha yes. some. depends on how badly it ended, i suppose.

27. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
no, not really. unless person-in-concern is really worth it

28. do you kiss on the 1st date?

29. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?

30. some random girl comes up to you and says “who the hell are you”? What do you say back?
get the fuck out of my way

31. are you spoiled?

32. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?
lack of intelligence, no self-control, incapability to handle slight/major issues

33. which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
an acquaintance i have

34. did you miss anyone today?

35. last person to see you cry?
haha qy, zh.

36. Who/what made you cry?
its a what. but i dont know what exactly.

37. are you a forgiving person?
most of the time yes

38. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
uh no 

39. i’ve come to realize the last person who gave me a hug...
is a friend of mine whom i cant remember cus i hug too much. 

40. are most of your friends guys or girls?
kinda balanced i think

41. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
45mins or less or more.

42. how many people do you know of named Adam?

44. what was the last thing you burnt ?
a piece of paper

46 what color is the bra you have on now ?

47. do you straighten your hair every day?

48. do you worry about the size of your boobs?

49. are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?

50. what are your favorite girly magazines?
vogue, teen vogue? seventeen? not a fav exactly. but...

51. did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy/girl?

52. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?

53. would you leave the house without makeup on?

54. what’s the biggest turn on about guys?
body (haha yes)

55. are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
middle. or so i tell myself.

56. is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?

57. what’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?

58. what color do you absolutely despise?

59. have you ever stole?

60. have you set your hair on fire?

61. do you wear sweat pants?

62. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
of course

63. have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
HAHAHA glass door only. really. REALLY.

64. doesn’t 50 Cent suck?
idk?! i dont listen haha

65. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo:)?

66. do you act gangster?

67. ever made a prank phone call?
of course.

69. what bill do you hate paying most?
all forms of it.

70. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?

71. what do you want to be when you grow up?

72. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy/girl?
sleeping. talking. hugging. whatever. 

73. when did you first start feeling older?
when things started being different.. too fast and too slow. crap, start of university. okay? like srsly. 

74. favorite guilty pleasure?
chocolates. cakes. guilty pleasures are food. because they make you fat. sex is not a guilty pleasure. it helps you lose weight! hello? it all comes from reading by the way, general knowledge.

75. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
chanel. love her brain.

76. what famous person would you like to date?
oh. um. uh. i dont know. yet. 

78. what do you hate about your school?
HAHA. it's school! whats not to hate.

80. have you lost a friend recently?
6 months or more ago? yes.

81. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
of course

82. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?

83. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
its a lie. both of them. you cant forget and forgive. you remember and you feel the shard of whatever you felt when that happened. 

84. do you give out second chances too easily?

85. is your best friend(s) pretty?
of course.

86. is it awkward when you run into your exes?

87. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

88. can you make yourself cry?

89. is your life simple or complicated?
at the very moment, complicated. but then, it's simple at the same time. bullshit. its a simple kind of twisted complication. don't understand. fuck forget it.

90. are you easily confused?

92. are you taller than 5′4″?
i have no idea. whats inches to a cm?

93. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
haha no

94. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
it is purely natural. pure at it's essence.

95. does everything really happen for a reason?
yes. sad but true. 

grabbed from cher. done at 225. whoa.

14 September 2009 @ 07:15 pm
 because there's always a part of humans who wants to remain stuck in the past. 
that's why there's nostalgia
28 March 2009 @ 01:58 am
"I was looking in her eyes. She said to me, we’re going to kiss tonight. That’s when I realized, right at that moment, that I loved her. I’d been waiting for 67 years to meet her."

06 March 2009 @ 09:50 pm
I've been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and i still want you as much as i did the first time i laid eyes on you. Every time i see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. It's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing i don't know. I don't know how to fall out of love with you. I don't know how to let go, and as i stand here looking at you, i wonder if there will ever be a day when i will get over your smile, when i will let go of the hugs you gave me that i continue to feel. A day when i forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much i love you. But, no matter what you did to me, or whatever happens to us, i know i could never get over, let go, or forget you.When you care about someone as much as i do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. I thought i'd handle it just fine,and that i'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. But,it isn't always that easy. Sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. I knew that i'd miss you, i just didn't know i'd miss you as much as i do. I want to share my tears with you. I want to share my love with you. I want to share my happiness with you. I want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days,and my bad days. I want to share my life with you. People can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever, and that's exactly what happened when i met you.

definitely maybe.
Current Music: Better Than Ezra - Our Last Night
03 January 2009 @ 01:15 am
2 days and counting..
let's see who can last longer.
i don't know what i feel about it.
but i know that i am thinking about it.
as well as knowing that i'll get over it soon anyway.
28 September 2008 @ 10:00 pm
do you still remember what it's like to have fun?
20 July 2008 @ 12:55 am
i'm trying to wake up.
knock myself out of this mess.

maybe we all need a smish smash snap.


transfer energy to studying.
transfer energy to studying.
transfer energy to studying.


sometimes, i don't know how much you are my king.
like now.
or that i am your beloved.
like now.
right at this moment, i feel almost close to nothing.
this close. -press thumb and index tgt-

see pa, no space, no space in between at all.
this is how close it is.
i am this close to losing all hope.

pick me up again.